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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 07:13:26 GMT

Hey waddup, ma beau`tfiul MaHaLZ ! Damnn...i'm so bore`d riight now..ain't nothin to do. Ma ass haz been Addict`dd to myspace ! haha...Since i haven't wrote in hurr fo`so long...i'ma tell you guyz some thangz dat'z goin on riight now. Uhhh, ma Life Suckz ! Ain't nothin new, riigh`t?!¿ I mean, first of all...i ain't walkin aross da stage at da ceremony in da last day of school wit ma homiez -n- shit...*Stupid ass mo-fuckin` teacherz* I mean, ma teacher(Mrs. Baran) gave her studentz a chance -n- she didn't give me JaCk-Shit ! So basically she'z fuckin pickin' favoritez.... stupid scrawny ass bitch !!! WATEVER...i ain't gon trip no mo`. I mean, all ya'll people dat are graduatin' don't give a damn about me or if i graduate, riight?!? So why me still buggin`?!? Hahaha....allz i'm gon say iz, HaVe FuN ! So yea....i'm good. Me just gotta let dat out. Lolz Anywayz, uhh...wat else?!? i just have hella other problemz...i mean, it ain't really minez but it'z anotha person'z problem but me -n- her are best-friendz -n- we're OnE together (-n- if ya readin` diz Mahal...i'm hurr fo` you no matter wat. Even if ya got someone else who'z first on ur list...Alwayz count on me) YUP ! Uhhh....on to ma Love life. Well, let'z just say i'm done wit ma break. -N- i just broke up wit a guy dat i don't even like...haha...i just said yes fo` da hell of it !! Lolz. I don't even count dat as us goin out but watever ! I guess i'm feelin` someone at da moment...-n- he likez me too but i don't know if we'll ever go out again... HoPefuLLy we'll give it anotha try !! I ain't gon say hiz name but.....Ohhhh, wat da HELL?!? i ain't a Pussy....aw-riight, it'z Kevin Kapchuk. Thurr i said it ! Hahahaha ! i don't know...he hella likez Alez more dan me though, -n- i would ask him out but it iz kinda uncomfortable wit me dat he likez someone more dan he likez me, so yea... Damnnnnnn !....just da way he hugz Alex, man ! You can see it in hiz eyez day he wantz some from her !! Hahaha....aw-riight, diz iz pro'lly long enough to entertain ya'll ! i'ma cut it hurr. Peace...HOLLA !

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Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Tue, 03 May 2005 17:52:55 GMT

Hey waddup ma MaHaLZ // Beau`tifulz! Damn...haven't been hurr in HELLA long! Well, ma ass iz riight hurr in school coz i'm HELLA bored! So yea. ANYWAYZ....ain't nothin really change'd in ma life riight now. Same shiity-ass drama....same problemaz...DAMN! *CAN I PLEASE BE NEXT TO GO -N- LEAVE DIZ DAMN WORLD?!?* it'z fuckin hard! *Sigh* Watever....i'ma cut it hurr. Peace...HOLLA!

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 01:24:15 GMT

Take a knife from da drawer in the kitchen... go upstairz in my room where no one can see, the misery that'z about to happen behind that locked door.. write my last farewell to all the people that I care about, cry my last tear... asking for forgiveness from Him -n- to put me in His paradise once I see the light. I close my eyes while I think about all the depressing shit I've been through -n- asking myself Why was i brought into this cruel world -n- Why I even deserve to live where I'm all alone, with no one to look up to. I count to 3... that's where it ends.

Life is Hard to deal with when you're all alone. There's so many problems that go by... it just makes me want to Runaway and not turn back. People say they want to help... people even try to help me, but I still see no change on what they've said -n- done. It'z no shits & gigglez when I say that I wanna end my life... I'm just waiting for the right time. How can I still want to live in this world where all the people I once loved are gone... -n- the people I thought would be there, are now dead to me... to where the people that brought me into this world are about to die... It just makes me wish that I would be Next so that everything can be at peace -n- done with. How can i ever get rid of this pain?

^^^Right thurr is da shit i wrote yesterday. I waz feelin' so dramatic! Well...as some of ya'll know..i broke-up wit Mario. There'z just too many problemz dat i have to deal with...it just makes me feel like i don't want a boyfriend riight now. I know he can help -n- comfort me...but see, it'z not gon work. Watever....i'ma cut it hurr.

21 MaHaLZ

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 18:20:16 GMT

:..:Mood:..:>>ChiLLaXin'

Hey waddup ma Beau`tifulz! Damn, i'm so mo-fuckin' bored riight now...there'z nothin' to do! *sigh* watever! Anywayz, life iz as usual, da same! you know wat i alwayz say *Same ol' shit everyday, but da Journey still continuez* Lolz. Me -n- ma fortune-cookie tellin' ass! Hahaha....whew! damn....ma bad but i don't really feel like bloggin'...i'ma just update later....SO i'ma just cut it hurr!

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 00:39:56 GMT

Hey waddup ma Mahalz! Well, ma ass iz bored as a phucker! So i'ma do another gah-damn survey! Aw-riight?!? Lolz. Hurr it iz:

__STATS___
NAME--Michelle Raye Gutierrez
AGE--14 yearz old...
DOB--Feb. 21, 1991
HEIGHT--like 5'2 or 5'3...
WEIGHT--OooWee...ma weight alwayz changez, sometimez 112 through 118...Lolz.
SHOE SiZE--seben *7*

(((LOVE/ REALTiONSHiPS/ SEX)))
ARE YOU SiNGLE?--nope...
iF YOU ARE, ARE YOU DATiNG ANYONE?--....
iF YOUR NOT WHO iS THE SPECiAL SOMEONE?--Mario.
HAVE YOU HAD YOUR FiRST KiSS?--haha, yea!
ARE YOU A ViRGiN?--yyyes... lolz.
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU HAD YOUR FiRST KiSS?--uhh...like in 5th grade..haha.
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR ViRGiNiTY?--I'm a freakin' virgin...hehe.
HAVE YOU BEEN iN LOVE?--i thought i waz once...but other than dat...nope!
HAVE YOU EVER CHEATED ON SOMEONE?--yea...well, dat'z coz it waz fuckin for revenge! shoot...haha...
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CHEATED ON?--Yea...*sadly*

*~*~*SCHOOL*~*~*
NAME OF YOUR SCHOOL--Campbell MIddle School
GRADE--8th grade.
FAVORiTE TEACHER--Miss Tibbs -n- Miss Brown...

[ [ [RiGHT NOW] ] ]
WHAT ARE YOU WEARiNG?--Shirt wit Pajama shortz wit heartz..lolz.
HOW DO YOU HAVE YOUR HAiR?--all up in a bun..
WHAT ARE YOU LiSTENiNG TO?--"Bacause of You" by Kyla
WHATS iN YOUR CD PLAYER?--"Encore" by Eminem
ARE YOU WATCHiNG ANYTHiNG?--yea...watchin' ma crackhead bro playin Need for Speed....lolz.
HOW iS YOUR MOOD TODAY?--HELLA sleep, ma stupid-ass had two hourz o' sleep!....hahaha...
WHATS THE WEATHER LiKE?--cloudy wit some sunshine...
DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?--nah, just Mario...i gues...hahaha...

>>>>LAST PERSON YOU...<<<<
DATED/BOYFRiEND--Well, before Mario..it would be Kevin.
KiSSED--Mario.
TOUCHED--ma lil sister...
HUGGED--Mario...
DANCED WiTH--No one...
TALKED ON THE PHONE TO--Pam...
TALKED TO--ma Kuya *big brother*
iMED--Melissa...
iMED YOU--Trung...
CALLED--No one yet today...

_*:_:*_FAVORiTES_*:_:*_
BEVERAGE(S)--hmm....i guess Mountain Dew.
ALCOHOLiC BEVERAGE(S)--SNIRNOFF iCE//BLACK...aww, i want some now! Lolz.
OUTFiT YOU WEAR--i have a lot...
COLOR--blue, black, gray, purple, silver, -n- white...
TV SHOW(S)--Simpsonz, MadTV, MTV, cartoons, -n- wat-not...
MOViE(S)--"The Notebook"...i love dat friggin' movie!
MONTH--February, December, -n- June...
DAY OF THE WEEK--Wednesdayz -n- Fridayz.
NAME(S) OTHER THAN YOURS--Pharell *i swear i'ma name ma son dat!*...Genisis...
MUSiC ARTiST(S)--i have HELLA!
ACTOR/ACTRESS--hella...
FRAGRANCE--Victoria's Secret...True Star...

::::RANDOM::::
DO YOU HAVE PETS?--nope, can't take care of one...lolz.
iF SO WHAT ARE THEiR NAMES?--....
WHATS YOUR RiNGTONE ON YOUR CELL PHONE?--ma ass iz too poor to have a cellie...hahaha...
DO YOU WEAR MAKE UP?--yea, it'z wat makez me pretty...lolz.
WHO ARE/iS YOUR BEST FRiEND(S)?--Pam, Marga, Dee, Martin, Jocselynn....
DO YOU LiKE TO DANCE?--yea...
HAVE YOU EVER SMOKED WEED?--hehe...yea...WHEW!
HOW MANY TiMES?--shoot...lost count...addicted to it fo`e a while...
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN iN A FiGHT?--Yup...
DO YOU HATE ANYONE?--nah....
DiD YOU LiKE THiS SURVEY?--i'm bored as a phucker..so it kinda entertained me!...lolz.

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Monday, March 28, 2005

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 04:12:00 GMT

Hey waddup ma MaHaLZ! Damn...haven't done one o' deze surveyz in a long time! So i feel doin em' riight now, coz i'm bored as a PHUCKER! hahaha...hurr it iz:

____YOUR LIFE____
[x] they call me:...............................................Michelle Raye
[x] also:...........................................................Michelle
[x] sex:............................................................Straight up Female...
[x] my first breath of air:..................................Feb. 21, 1991
[x] status:........................................................currently taken by Mario Ventura...lolz
[x] occupation:................................................student @ Campbell Middle
[x] nationality:..................................................i never realized diz, but i'm actually a fuckin mut...lolz. wit Filipino, Mexican, Chinese, -n- Marshallese...but still w/ da Pinayz -n- Pinoyz!
[x] best homegirl[s]:.........................................Pam, Jocselynn, Marga, Aimee, Trasie, -n- hella more...
[x] best homeboy[s]........................................da one -n- only Dee, Martin, Henry, Kevin, Rudi, R.J., Paul, -n- Jules...

____REWIND____
[x] most memorable memory:.........................OooWee...i gotz HELLA...
[x] worst?:....................................................Don't wanna say.
[x] first bestfriend ever!?:..............................Geraldine...

____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go:............................UCLA wit Pam...
[x] future resident of:...................................huh?
[x] wedding:................................................haven't decided...but gotz to be in a church at da Philippinez...
[x] children:.................................................Uhhh...like 2or 3, maybe 4? haha..
[x] looking forward to thanksgiving:.............Nah, it ain't really special to me...
[x] NOT looking forward to:.......................leavin' Campbell -n- most of da homiez...

____PLAY____
[x] feeling:..................................................Beau`tiful!
[x] Listening:..............................................True by Ryan Cabrera...(i'm so pop!) Lolz.
[x] Talking:................................................No one, coz i can't use da internet -n- talk on da phone at da same time...
[x] doing:..................................................chattin', doin' diz damn survey, -n- listenin' to music...
[x] craving:................................................Mario...hahaha.... PHUCKER!
[x] thinking of:...........................................Ma boi...
[x] hating:..................................................nothin' really...
____LOVE?____
[x] love is:.................................................someone you hella hella hella care about...dat when ur about to see him, you get all excited dat ur heart actually startz beatin' fast...you would do anythang just to be wit him. you love to chillax wit him, -n- talk to him on da phone...think about him 24/7!..also, someone you know dat you can trust wit ur life -n- know dat will never leave you even if ya'll ain't together....*DAMN, i'ma stop there, before i fuckin put up a damn novel!* LOLZ.
[x] first love:.............................................hmm...let'z just say, No one. But hoepfully soon...
[x] current love:........................................Mario Ventura.
[x] love or lust?:.......................................Lo`ve
[x] best love song:....................................I have HELLA...but currently it'z "Because of You" by Kyla...
[x] when love hurts, you:...........................Cry like a lil bitch -n- punch da wall....
[x] true or false - all you need is love:........Tr`ue!
[x] have you ever been in love?:...............Nope...

____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat:........................................Doggie
[x] short or long:...................................Long
[x] sunshine or rain:.................................Sunshine...
[x] moon or sun:.....................................Both.
[x] basketball or football:........................Baske`tball
[x] righty or lefty:....................................Lefty...
[x] hugs or kisses:..................................Both
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances:.....1 best friend...
[x] bf/gf or best friend:...........................shiit...uhh, both...
[x] tv or radio:.......................................T.V.
[x] starbucks or jamba juice:..................Both..
[x] mc donalds or burger king:...............MicciD'z
[x] summer or winter:............................Summ`er
[x] written letters or e-mails:..................Written letterz, i don't do emailz no mo`re...
[x] playstation or nintendo:....................Play`Station
[x] disney or nickelodeon:.....................Both
[x] car or motorcycle:...........................Both..
[x] house party or club:.........................Clubbin'
[x] sing or dance:..................................both...
[x] freak or slow dance:........................haha, both
[x] yahoo messenger or aim:.................AIM

____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] can you swim?:..............................sadly no, but i'ma have to learn diz summer! Lolz.
[x] what are you scared of?:................do some`thin wrong dat will make me single again...lolz. but i pro'lly won't!
[x] do you like tomatoes?:...................Uhh, in saladz?
[x] how many TVs in the house?:........3
[x] how many phones?:.......................7, haha...2 in da kitchen, 2 in ma bro'z room, 1 in ma parentz, -n- 2 in ma room..
[x] sucking on:...................................Not a damn thang!
[x] last doctor visit:............................Last year..lolz..
[x] last phone call:.............................Uhh..like an hour ago wit Mario...

I'ma cut it hurr!

21 MaHaLZ

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 05:41:40 GMT

Hey waddup, ma MaHaLZ! Whew...ma bad, but i've been a damn lazy-ass for not writin in diz shit...SORRY! Lolz. Well, durr haz been alot of thangz goin on lately...i mean, let'z just say dat ErrRbody be hella hookin' up! CRAZY!...Hmmm, let'z see...fuckin Pam -n- Henry broke up like on Monday, den dey got back wit each other like da next day coz dey couldn't let each other go! (AwwWw) *ReTarD* Haha. So yea, uhhh...both Rachel, Kennia, -n- Tiffany got durr manz at i think, Oakridge Mall. -N- Trasie iz hella feelin' diz guy named Jojo. Haha...so yea, i mean...durr'z hella more couplez dat i'd like to put but i know ya'll don't know who da hellz i'm talkin about! Lolz. YUP!....anywayz, right now...Life iz BEAUTIFUL! I mean, i never knew dat i'd say thiz, but *Life cannot get any better than this* Durr'z just no drama wat-so-eva! Like, i have pam to alwayz be there for me no matter wat, ma family ain't bitchin at me no more, ma gradez iz aw-riight, -n- not to mention, i've got da boyfriend dat'z durr to put a smile on ma face -n- just make me feel like, i should have a reason to live and i guess, he'z it. Ya feel?!? Hahaha....i mean, it'z no shiitz -n- gigglez or anythang like dat....i ain't sayin it'z love....but we on our way! Lolz. I'ma just say wat i usually say, i'ma just have to *Live Life to da Fullest*!

Well, in school....we just started a new trimester...so all of ma gradez are now A'z....hahaha, BEAUTIFUL! But today, waz kinda gay coz out fuckin first draft for da exhibitionz waz due today...-n- if we turned it in all perfect, den ma teacher iz gon treat us to D.Q. but i didn't get to go coz ma paper waz 41/2 pagez long instead of 5! i'm all, "da fuck?!?" WATEVER! So i just stayed wit da other pimpz dat didn't go...all da smart-assez went but i guezz it'z coo....shiit, i had fun! Lolz. Aw-riight..i'ma have to cut it hurr!

21 MaHaLZ

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 05:03:52 GMT

WAT DA DEALIO, MA MAHALZ!!! haha...mo-phucker!...been a shitty-ass long time since i wrote in hurr! OoooWeee! Lolz. So yea...Anywayz, life iz aw-riight...some depressin momentz but i still Lived it up! But i guess riight now, I'm hella sad!!! Coz Dee iz movin back to Louisiana! *Sniff* Man...who gon put a smile in ma face when i'm down?...who am i gon talk to when i have boy problemz?....shit, who am i gon joke around wit or have a rap battle wit?? DAMN!....you suck, Dee!! *Sigh* So yea...tomorrow, all of us pimpz are goin to D.Q. -n- just have fun -n- EAT!...hahaha, at least i Am!....lolz. so yea..

Damn...i can't believe dat i'm graduatin' middle school diz year!..den, HIGH SCHOOL! Whew!....i guess it ain't gon be dat hard! damn...i'ma just hella concentrate in all da 4 yearz...so dat, i'ma go to UCLA for college -n- be rich -n- maybe, FAMOUS! Mwahaha! *Retard* So yea..i'ma have to hella be buck-wild -n- just party diz year....so dat by high school, i'ma all payin attention -n- workin hard! DAMN...dat'z gon be hard as hell! hahahaha....I GUESS! Hay NAKO!....i'ma just cut it hurr den!

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Sunday, February 13, 2005

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 01:22:57 GMT

Hey waddup ma MaHaLZ!! Damn, haven't hurr in HELLA! So yea...hmm, wat'z been goin on?!?...hella shiit! Oh, I have a VALENTINE! hahaha...hella retarded, but oh well! I'm still a kid!...yeah, hiz name iz steve! -N- we like each other!...*retard!* Hahaha...it'z all good! He lives in Milpitas! Ma homie "g" dawg Marga hooked me up wit him -n- shit! So yea, we've been talkin...we ain't together yet though! Hahaha...so yea! Uhh...Pam -n- Henry are still mo-fuckin together! Anywayz, umm...i'm still ivin life! But...i've been punchin da wall lately...yak now, to let out ma anger -n- shit! So yea!

Today we have a party for ma baby niece'z 2nd birthday! YEAH! So yea...Hahahah...oh my gosh! You know wat'z hella ghetto?!?...I have a nose pierce, riight?!?...well, like..i have da ring -n- shit, but no shine coz da fuckin diamond fell off! Hahahaha....as Pam said, "hella hood-rich!" Hahahaha...*mahal kita* Aw-right..i'ma cut it hurr!

21 MaHaLZ

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 15:51:03 GMT

Hey waddup ma MaHaLZ! Hurr'z a survey coz i'm bored.....enjoy:

Basics:
Nickname(s): MesheLL, Ray-Raye, Shell, Pinay, idiot..hella more..
Initials: M.R.G
How old do you look?: peoplez tell me 15 or 16
How old do you act?: Uhhh...sometimez a kid, sometimez an adult...
Glasses/Contacts: Contacts..but 4 style only...
Braces: Nope..but i'ma get some in March
What makes you happy? someone/something dat makez me laugh...
What upsets you? Liarz, bitchez, hoez, stuck-up people..too much, too much....

First:
First best friend: Diz gurl in da Philippinez named Geraldine...
First real boyfriend: hmmm...wow, i'd have to say Ryan
First real memory of something: Ma first stepz...even though i never really remembered but oh well...
First date: Went to da movies
First kiss: Damn...don't remember...
First screen name: xxdapinayxx...-n- still ma sn...
First self purchased album: ......don't know
First pets: don't have any...
First piercing/tattoo: uhhh...when i waz a lil baby
First enemy: Diz bitch named Jhamie....
First big trip: in Hawaii
First detention: Hahaha....in 3rd grade
First heartbreak: Dontwanna talk about it...
First time breaking a bone: LOLZ....when i tryed to breakdance...
First sleepover: When i waz in 5th grade...
First hangover: hahaha....5th grade

Social Life:
Best girl friend(s): Pam, Nerrisa, Jocselynn, Marga, Aimee...hmm?
Boyfriend: Don't have one but i have a Valentine!
Hobbies: singing, talkin on da phone, chattin, listenin to music, playin b-ball wit ma bro....
Are you center of attention or the wallflower: Uhhh...center of attention?...i don'tt knoww...
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: Dependz....
Best hangout: Da bowling alley....

Who- People:
Have known the longest: Ma mom..since she waz da first person i saw when i came in diz world...lolz
Argue the most with: Marga...*ang kulit mo, bakla ka!*
Always get along with: Everybody....
Is most trustworthy: da bestfriends...
Makes you laugh the most: Nerrisa, Trevor Weissbart, -n- Dee Campbel...
Most interesting to talk to: bestfriends, Dee Campbell, -n- Martin...
Has been there through all the hard times: Of course da bestfriendz, -n- Martin
Has the coolest parents: I don't know....
Is the most blunt: Phuckin Pam!!!
Is the smartest: Pam...since wit da good gradez....lolz
Best Mannered: No one...everybody'z rude! Hahaha...
Best Dressed: Tiffa-nay!!
Most talkative: Alot of peoplez....
Most Innocent: .....

Last:
Car ride: Umm....yesterday when I went to da laundry...
Movie seen: Napoleon Dynamite...*IDIOTS* Hahaha....
swear word: Phuckin shiit!
beverage consumed: Pepsi....
Person you called: Pam...which waz 10:30 last night....
that called you: Pam...
TV show watched: Ashlee Simpson show...
Shower: TOday at 1 o`clock....
Shoes worn: ma baby phats...
Item bought: I don't know...
Annoyance: no one....
Web page visited: Myspce....
Movie you rented: Da Grudge....
CD you listened to: Side A
CD you've bought: Side A
Person you were thinking of: Uhh....Steve

Now:
What are you wearing: tang-top -n- pajama shortz....
What song are you listening to?: True by Will.I.Am -n- Fergie...
What's the weather like?: Sunny wit cold windz....
Current obsession: Umm....writin up poems
Current Addiction: Potater chipz...
Talking To: ma baby niece....

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